Addictions Arent Just In The Mind...

Never Tried to quit anything in my life till the past year...Seems like ive had to quit everything that i enjoy in life in a matter of like a few months...As i sit here listening to The Blue Oyster Cults, "Don't Fear The Reaper", im understanding it more and more...Its not so much that i am dying...but i feel like im dying inside...Ive given up some of the most addictive drugs here in the last 2 months, and gone through some horrible withdraws, Ive done it for me, ive done it for my family, and i done it for my friends that care about me, and all of the above that wanna see me make it to live to see old age...Ive given up cocaine but i cant give up alcohol...your gonna tell me theres not a problem there???I use to snort coke all day long at work bust the hell outta some jobs and now that i stopped my boss is starting to wonder what the hell happened to my production...LOL...I mean seriously can alcohol be even more addictive than all the drugs i was doing??? Or is there just something wrong with me inside my head that i just cant shake this deamon...Could it be that this addiction is truely in my mind and not a physical addiction...When id leave a drug i had no problems no turning back never even think about em really...ive had many friends in the last week roll one up or chop a line and offer me and i was able to turn em al down...wanna beer and i cant say no...sometimes i wish i knew what was wrong with my brain up there so that maybe i could take a knife and cut that bad part of my brain out...